“If your leavin the club…Shawty hurry up…So we can get this party started…”
When I closed the door to my room I SCREAMED!!AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! This was drivin me crazy! I was tryin my hardest not to just go runnin back to Chris. I mean every single time I did… It went horribly WRONG! Why couldn’t I just be FRIENDS with him and not be ATTRACTED? I mean is that so HARD! Well obviously it is. Why couldn’t he just stay behind the friend line…Turn ugly to me and that be that! I mean I was able to do it with TREY! Me and Trey were actually back to where we were before we got together! I actually enjoyed hangin out with him and he never tries anythin anymore. Well other than still profess that he is in love with me but Psssh!…It’s like old sweet bestfriend Trey was back! Which I thought would never be seen again! He even THINKS BEFORE HE SPEAKS AROUND ME! But Chris…Chris…I just can’t seem to shake that damn pull that I’m startin to hate! It’s like he could brush my hair off my shoulder innocently and BAM! I’m back to wantin him! NO! It had only been a week since he broke up with Draya…I couldn’t just go jump on the dick! Well I could…Cause he’s only four doors down and I know he probably aint got no boxers on and I could just sneak some surprise head up on hi- NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
Now I really couldn’t sleep….I was so mad at myself for not just goin through with it…But I knew that this was the best way for now…DON’T COMPLICATE THINGS WITH SEX! I had been readin this book that would help me work out my issues in relationships and one of the chapters said that rushin into sex would only doom a relationship. Chris didn’t know it but I was now celebate! I wasn’t goin to tell him because I knew he would make it his mission to make sure I WASN’T ANYMORE! I mean I was hopin on down the line we could consider a relationship but right now I had to separate our friendship from lust! SO NO MONSTA FOR ME!
After a whole day of Chris havin an OBVIOUS ATTITUDE about not gettin any…He finally came around. I knew he would corner me again so I made it a point to never be ALONE with him NO MATTER WHAT! No more late night talks…No more late night sessions in his studio…No more “Hey come chill with me”….NOTHIN! I knew he had caught on to me avoidin him…But he never made a big deal. He mostly floated around me respectin my space. Which was actually refreshin….I mean I thought it was gonna be a lot harder to get him to back off….but it’s like he came to terms with it. After a few days we had to head back to LA to shoot No Bullshit. Now I had already braced myself for it. But when I actually saw the treatments…MY MOUTH DROPPED! IT WAS DAMN NEAR A PORNO! I mean the song was pure sex anyway so addin the visuals too it would have any woman squirmin in her seat! HA!
I tried hard not to think about the fact that Chris was gonna be damn near fuckin another girl in front of me ALL DAY! I figured I would keep myself busy in the wardrobe trailer so that I wouldn’t have to be on set. After the first 6 hours I was bored as hell…But you couldn’t pay me to go to that set! UH UH…it had been almost a month of NO SEX and I knew once I looked at the LIVE PORNO it was gonna be a wrap! By lunch time I finally worked my way to the kraft table and was happy to see Kevin!
“Hey I didn’t know you was here!” He said givin me the biggest hug and showin his dimples.
“Yea…Yea been in the trailer…You know organizin and re-organizin.” I said not tryin to look at him.
“Damn it’s been almost 7 hours…Everythin in there probably color coordinated!” He said laughin.
“Sad…But it is.” I said laughin and lookin at him then away.
“Well why don’t you come to the set then? You gotta be bored as hell.” He said grabbin a water and handin me one.
“Yea I am…But once you seen a freaky video you’ve seen them all…I’m alittle over it.” I said nonchalantly.
“Aww it’s not as bad as you think…Colin makin it tasteful…Well tasteful as it can be.” He said laughin showin his dimple.
“Well I might come out for the dance scenes…He shootin that when it gets dark right?” I said takin in his flawless skin.
“Uh…Yea I think so.” He said lookin at me like he was studyin me.
“Ok…Ok…I’ll come over then.” I said feelin awkward so I picked up my salad.
“Aight see you then…You look gorgeous by the way.” He said winkin and walkin off.
I felt chills run down my back for some damn reason. GET IT TOGETHER HELENA!! There was always a small mutual attraction between me and Kevin…But we both dared not speak on it plus his girlfriend was now his soon to be mother of his child. Chris and Kevin had now got super close…So me even thinkin of gettin with him was like me gettin with Shad! OUT OF THE QUESTION! There somethings that have to be left alone…And he was one of them…even if my BODY didn’t want to! THIS CELEBACY & LOYALTY SHIT SUCKS! Once it got dark I headed over to the set. I sat there for another hour watchin Chris kill his dance routine and let me say it was definitely SEX…I mean SEXY! HA! Once the shoot wrapped…It was time for the afterparty of sorts. I got to the club with Janina and Xena first and was there for an hour when Janina was approached by some of her friends. In the group was this tall, smooth, brown skinned guy that looked sooo familiar. He immediately intrigued me because he was kinda just observin. And once I finished my drink…He finally approached me…
“How you doin.” Sexy said.
“I’m good and you.” I said calmly.
“My name is Sterling and yours.” He said cooly.
“Helena.” I said as he held his hand out to me.
“It’s nice meetin you Helena…So you enjoyin yaself?….Cause it seems kinda eh in here.” He said lookin around.
“Well it’s still early…So it might get better.” I said smilin at him.
“Glad you got such a positive outlook…Cause I was about to bounce…But guess I could stay now that I finally talked to you.” He said smilin back.
“Yea see if you woulda left we wouldn’t be havin this corny ass formal conversation.” I said sarcastiacally and laughin lightly.
“I know right! Bein all proper…So how are your stocks and bonds doin?” He said laughin.
WOW HE CORNY TOO!
“There doin well everythin is in the black.” I said laughin more.
“Wow… Beautiful and can crack corny jokes…You the whole package huh?” He said relaxin even more.
“I’m just me…Aint nothin better than a corny joke!” I said smilin harder.
“You got that right…So uh…Let me get the usuals out… Are you single?….You got a man but not really?…Got a stalker ex that gonna jump out from the bushes if we leave together?…Do you have any kids?…and hows your credit?” He said waitin for my answers.
I LIKE HIM!
“Well alright…Yes…Kinda Sorta…Probably…Only on the weekends…and I might need some help!” I said saracastically.
“Oh Shit!” He said laughin hard.
We both laughed…I couldn’t help but notice his laugh and dimple…He also had the prettiest brown eyes. He just seemed like a regular guy… Which for me was definitely different! Hmmmm.
“You like that huh?…Yea I’m quick with it!” I said laughin.
“Wow…That was good! So I’m guessin the only true part is that your single?” He said raising his eyebrow.
“You guessed right.” I said putting my glass on the table.
“Cool…Cool…So am I…No Kids and no damn babymama either!” He said with a slight accent.
HE NOT FROM LA! YEEEEESSS!
“Those are always a plus! So where you from Mr. Sterling?” I asked.
“Oh you caught that…I’m originally from Chicago…Been her for a year for work…You from here…I hear a little southern-eastcoast accent…If that’s even possible!” He said putting his glass down.
AND OBSERVANT! WET!!
“You’re actually dead on….I was born here but grew up mostly in Atlanta and New York.” I said feelin my phone vibrate in my pocketbook.
“Ok…Ok…I can dig that! Cause man these straight LA girls is too Hollywood for me…I need somebody that has actually ate some collord greens and cornbread!” He said laughin .
I CAN MAKE’EM TOO! HA!
“Oh Hell Yeah! And some grits…Shit now I wanna go home and cook.” I said throwin it out there. WHAT?
“WORD! Don’t play! I’ll be the stalker in the bushes jumpin out for a plate of food like STAY AWAY FROM MY WOMAN!” He said bein goofy and loud!
Damn…He remind of…
I was lovin our chemistry it was so causal…Like I had known him forever…I was also lovin that he wasn’t hittin on me! DAMN! I aint had this type of convo since….
“See nah that will get you shot! You from Chicago…You know you don’t go jumpin out on people!” I said pattin his arm lightly as I laughed.
“You right! But for some real ass soul food…I’ll take that damn bullet!” He said getting closer.
“You crazy!” I said feelin my phone vibrate again. GO AWAY!
“So Ms. Helena you got a number…I would love to crack some more jokes with you.” He said sweetly.
I was about to answer when his friend came and whispered something in his ear. I watched as his expression changed slightly. WHAT??? He then looked down at me and I could see the slight disappointment in his eyes. WHAAAAT???
“Aye uh…I gotta go but it was nice meetin you…You stay beautiful…Honey…See you around.”
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!
“Whoa…Wait! How you know my name is Honey?” I said feelin a flame in my stomach.
“You the homie Trey’s ex aint you?” Sterling’s homie chimed in.
NIGGA WAS I TALKIN TO YOU!
“So!” I said with an attitude.
“Well…He can’t be fuckin with you…That’s his nigga!” The HATER SAID!
“Um…Trey don’t own me…I am single and that was 2 and half years ago!” I fired back.
“Well babygirl…Even if it was 10 years ago he can’t fuck wit it…It’s a loyalty thing…Somethin you have a problem with.” The hater said as Sterling watched it all in shock.
“Fuck you mean by that?” I fired.
WHO ARE YOU?
“You know….Wasn’t you with Chris Brown too?” He smirked.
“And your point?” I said ready to sock his ugly ass in the mouth for tellin my business.
“Whoa…Whoa…You was with the homie Chris too?” Sterling finally spoke up.
THE HOMIE? OH GOD!
“Me and Chris are bestfriends…” I lied.
“Bestfriends that was together off and on forever!” The Hater said as Xena walked over.
“NIGGA WHY YOU ALL IN MY FUCKIN BUSINESS!” I finally yelled.
“Cause you a groupie bitch!” The hater said getting closer.
NIGGA FUCK YOU!
I didn’t even think I just swung! I hit his ass dead in the nose. I swung 3 more times as he tried to lunge for me but Xena and Sterling got in between us…I kept tryin to hit the Hater but connected with Sterling’s head. OOPS! Sterling got pissed and started pushin THE HATER back.
“NIGGA WHAT THE FUCK YOU BOUT TO DO!” I heard him check The Hater.
“Steelo… Man you iont even know that bitch!” The hater said pushin him back.
“RICO…IF DON’T WANNA GET YA ASS BEAT YOU BETTA GET THE FUCK ON!” He said with his accent gettin thicker.
“FUCK YOU WANNA DO STEELO!” The Hater said squarin up with Sterling.
Before Sterling could respond…Security came and basically manhandled them both out of the VIP and the club! Damn…I felt bad cause he got kicked out tryin to defend me and I was also irritated cause I DIDN’T GET HIS DAMN NUMBER! DAMN! I was still pissed and buzzin so right now I was a mixture of ANGRY and HORNY! FUCK! I mean he was so perfect…and just had to have a hatin ass homeboy! I was really pissed cause the hater made me look like I was some groupie bitch and that is FAAAAR FROM THE TRUTH! And how he Trey’s friend? I aint never seen or heard of him! I was definitely gonna find out!
“Girl was that nigga tryin to fight you?” Xena asked now with Nina standin next to her.
“I don’t know…All I know is he was hatin like hell to Sterling.” I said feelin my phone again.
“Sterling?” Nina asked.
“Sterling…You know Steelo…The fresh meat from Chicago…work over there at the Fantasy Factory.” Xena blurted out.
“Oh yeah! Steelo…he is so sweet and fuuunny! “ Nina said laughin.
“He work at the Fantasy Factory?….Like Rob Dyrdek…MTV Fantasy Factory!” I said in shock.
“Yea girl…He been on the show for a minute…Him and Rob are friends.” Xena filled me in.
I was in shock cause I loved that show…never missed an episode…and then it hit me! THAT’S WHY HE LOOKED SO FAMILIAR!
“Oh My God…I knew I seen him some where before!” I said as I looked and saw a crowd comin into the VIP.
“Yes girl…I could tell he was feelin you…Wait.” She said textin on her phone.
I waited as I watched the crowd come closer…and that’s when I saw Mijo. WELP! Guess Chris’s is finally here. I grabbed my pocketbook and pulled my phone out so I could text him and that’s when I saw the 3 texts. I checked them:
B: Gotta tell you something.
I was confused so I check the next one.
I looked up as the crowd moved closer but I guess he was blocked by Los and Pat cause I couldn’t see him yet. So I checked the last text.
MIJO: Don’t trip but Chris bringin a bitch. Can’t say I didn’t tell you!
I was about to put my phone back when Xena stopped me.
“Ok here girl…I’mma text you his number.” Xena said sendin the text to me.
“O-Ok..” I said distracted cause I was tryin to see who Chris was with.
I waited for Xena’s text when I got another two. DAMN! I checked the first one:
B: Where you at?
I was about to answer when Xena’s text came in…I saved the number and then checked the second text:
TEY: Girl! Chris brought his lil friend. Don’t get mad. Just letting you know.
WHO THE IS THIS BITCH???
I was now irritated…Cause I wanted to know WHO THIS FRIEND WAS? I mean I KNEW about most of his lil stragler bitch’s so I wanted to see this Bitch for myself!
AND WHY EVERYBODY THINK I’M GONNA TRIP!
“Ok you got it?” Xena said as she looked over at Chris crowd.
“Yea I saved it…Look everybody keep tellin me Chris here with some chick.” I said tyin to see through the crowd.
“What?” Xena said lookin at me irritated.
“Yea…Mijo and Tey just text me tellin me not to trip.”
“It betta not be Draya’s ass cause I told her to leave it alone.” Xena said shakin her head.
See Xena was in the middle when it came to me and Draya….Draya was her friend first and when Draya got with Chris…Xena cussed her out and told her she was DEAD ASS WRONG cause she knew me and Chris’s history and I was supposed to be her friend. I told Xena I was over it…Xena was still cool with Draya but not like they were cause of a situation with her ex that was well…stil not fully resolved. GO FIGURE!
“Let’s go see!” Xena said.
“See you tryin to get her into trouble.” Nina said shakin her head.
“No I’m not…I mean they are still bestfriends…Its only right she meet the new girl of the hour!” Xena said laughin.
“I wouldn’t want to…Plus she should be callin Steelo…He’s a good guy…See what that’s about…Let you and Chris be…No sense in diggin up the obviously broke past…He need to grow up!” Nina said puttin her drink down.
Now that caught me offguard cause Nina had always pulled for me and Chris…Guess she felt that he couldn’t be serious right now and was tired of seein me hurt behind him. I couldn’t even fault her.
“Wow! Nina…It’s like dat?”
We all looked up and there was Chris lookin at us with his hand on his heart. Damn…
HOW LONG HE BEEN STANDIN THERE????
“Uh…Uh..” Was all Nina could say blushin.
“It’s cool…I got you…A nigga do need to grow up…” Chris said finally standin next to me.
“I just meant…You need to make up your mind is all.” Nina clarified.
“I got you…But a nigga know what he want…Just SOMEBODY don’t want that shit right now…So.” He said as he pointed down at me.
“Whatever B…So when am I gonna meet you NEW girlfriend?” I fired at him.
He looked down at me in shock. WHAT YOU THINK I WASN’T GONNA FIND OUT?
“Well you can meet her and she NOT my girlfriend…She just a friend…Showin her a good time.” He said makin a face at me.
“Well we know all about yo good times….She’ll be butt ass naked by mornin!” Xena said laughin and rollin her eyes.
“Ch…Xena why you always talkin shit to me? I aint never did shit to you?” He said soundin crushed.
“NIgga don’t act like I don’t know ALL sides to these stories…But I let you slide cause you my boo’s love.” She said bumpin me.
“Man…See you act like I’m some dog.” He said lookin down at our empty glasses.
“Pssh…Prove to me you aint and I wont say shit!” Xena fired back.
“Oh…I will when ya BOO let me.” He said lookin at me again.
WHAT THE FUCK EVER!!
“Hmmm…Well here is your first test cause here come ya FRIEND!” Xena said noddin to Tey walkin over with a girl behind her.
I was blown the fuck away! I looked up at this tall…Fair skinned…Blonde curly haired…Blue eyed…Model esque…ROBYN LOOK- A -LIKE! I swear my mouth dropped! She was stunning! But she also looked familiar…Not because of the OBVIOUS ROBYN FEATURES! But it was like I knew her from somewhere or someone. When she smiled over at him I could see she was feelin him MORE THAN FRIENDS! It took me a second to stop starin so hard…But all I kept thinkin was REALLY CHRIS? SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE ROB!
“Hey Bro!” Tey said nervously “Heeeey Sis!”
“Hey Tey” I said givin her a hug and still lookin at the girl.
“Hey what up ya’ll.” Chris said camly.
I was an awkward silence with Nina and Xena after the both said hi to Tey. We all looked over at Chris and waited for him to introduce HER!
“So what ya’ll drinkin on…Come over to our area so I can refill them glasses!” He said bein silly.
“Shit if you got me…I’m there!” Xena said grabbin my hand.
“You know I do…Bout to pop them bottles!” He said tryin to read me.
I was still shook…But I was readin the girl. She seemed young and I could also see her whole personality change as Chris put his arms around Me and Xena’s shoulders and walked us over to his area.
Once we got over there he made sure to hand us all drinks except HER. I was a little curious about that but I didn’t say anythin. I watched as she mostly talked to Tey or stood quietly by Chris who was mostly talkin to Me, Nina, Xena, Mijo, Keeis and Twon. I was confused! Every now and then they would whisper back and forth but Chris didn’t show too much emotion…Just nodded his head and went back to dancin or talkin to whoever. WHAT THE HELL IS GOIN ON? After about an hour I was feelin it…And decided that well she must NOT be a threat so I paid her no mind. I mean what was I supposed to do? Say HEEEY GIRL LET’S BE FRIENDS! Uh Hell No! Who was I to say I was ever gonna see her ass AGAIN!
“So you done avoidin me?” Chris said in to my ear.
“Avoidin you?” I said leanin in cause the music was loud.
“Yea…Yo ass bein runnin track away from me!” He said obviously tipsy acause he put his arm around my waist.
UH NIGGA! BACK UP!
“I have not…And you occupied anyway…” I said sippin some more.
“Pssh…I told you she’s just a friend…Plus im always available for you.” He said brushin he lips against my ear.
“Chris can we go?” I heard HER say interruptin me in a way I had heard before.
I heard him sigh into my ear and then look over at her. She had the most irritated face and was turnin bright ass red!
“We ain’t even been here long.” Chris said obviously irritated by her interruption.
“Well I got to get up early for my shoot…You said we were gonna go spend time alone.” She said then lookin over at me.
“Damn Jasmine…We are but everybody havin a good time…Shit just now gettin poppin!” He said doin a dance.
It took me a minute…But then I realized I recognized that name! She was the girl that text him the night he called it off with me! WOOOOW! I didn’t get upset…Cause well even in person she still seemed harmless to me. She looked at him and was not amused. She then turned to Tey and said somethin to her in her ear and I saw Tey look irriatated too.
“Aye ya’ll we bout to roll.” Tey said to us.
“So you gonna leave.” Chris said to Jasmine dryly.
“Yea…I told you I got work in the mornin…I ain’t got time for partyin.” She said matter of factly to him.
“Aight…Cool I’ll holla at you.” Chris said unphased.
“You do that.” She snapped back.
“Aight…I’ll get up with you tomorrow Tey.” He said ignorin Jasmine’s now OBVIOUS attitude.
“Aight Bro…Bye Sis…Bye Ya’ll” Tey said walkin out of our area with Jasmine followin.
I looked over at Chris who had began dancin to the music as he sipped some more of his drink. HE WAS REALLY NOT FAZED! I laughed to myself a little cause he was definitely cold with it…But hey he said she was just a friend so I guess she was just that. After another hour I had chilled out on the drinkin cause if I didn’t my CELEBACY was gonna go out of the window! Especially the way Chris was now all over me…All the touchin and grindin…Mixed with the liq and occasional neck kisses was sendin my hormones OVER THE EDGE! I had to keep my composure…My strength…It was my only line of defense against this SEXY DRUNK MUTHAFUCKA!
“Sweeets come hoome with mee.” He moaned in my ear as her held me from behind.
“B…You drunk…Uh Uh.” I said tryin to leave space between my ass and MONSTA!
“SSSS…So…Let me in.” He moaned lightly lickin my ear and pressin me up against MONSTA!
Before I could answer NO BULLSHIT started playin! FUUUUUUUCK! This shit is just not fair….Somebody hates me! He began grindin up against my ass and well this was my DAMN SONG and I got into it! And he was DEFINITELY ENJOYIN IT! MONSTA was so rock hard HE coulda ripped his damn pants! WHAT ARE YOU DOIN HELENA??? I screamed at myself but the liq had me and I just kept dancin.
“When ya leavin the cluuub…I want you to come over girl” He sang into my ear.
I swear my whole body was on fire! Just one more time…It won’t hurt anythin…Right? He had me WET! I couldn’t hold out no more…and well I HATED HIM FOR IT! He knew just what to do to get me THERE…and well
“No…B…I gotta go.”
He was gonna earn this shit…